I have spent the couple of years or so rehashing the times we shared with one another, and if I had realized that what I started here was going to lead to all of this… well I don’t know, but I do know that I have come to a conclusion - I have written everyone of you that I every truly and honestly been in love with, and believed that you loved me back. I could keep going on with this, cause there were many more not so great loves in my life, and a few unrequited loves that burnt bright. But to keep this special I think this has to end here….
I hope someday (someday soon) I find someone that I can make it really happy with. Someone who excepts my idiosyncratic behavior. Some one who shares my passion for knowledge and understanding. Someone who rocks a pair of keds and t shirt as much as she does the little black dress. Someone who knows it good to be a little bad sometimes.
I have been looking back for that person, I should be looking forward
When my life settles down in a bit - I will start looking. And when I do, I may start a new series here. But that doesn’t mean you can’t come find me first.
This is a letter I wrote on my other blog, on my myspace. Its part of a series, letters to women with whom I have had relationships with. Relationships that ended, most likely due to something stupid I did. - want to read more of them? Go to my myspace blog If you like this, I will put some of the other letters here
Now that blog was about how you up and left all your friends and how I was looking for where you may have gone -
This is me, talking to you directly -
Soozie, I wish I could do it over with you, and I don’t say that often. I felt maybe, once, you and I could have, may have had, a real future.
We started as friends, mostly because I never had the nerve to actually ask you out. I did however make friends with you and your friends (and those friendships with people like Joanie and her sister, Beth, and others took on their own special lives). So our friendship brought a lot to my life. Then we started to get closer - I was never around enough to make you feel that I was serious about you. My work has ruined many a relationship, I know that. I wish I didn’t play of . I wish I didn’t try to cram weeks of dating into one weekend when I could…
Wherever you are I am hope you are hap…
No, wherever you are I hope you get in touch with me. Let me know you are happy.
So last week I set down some ambitious goals for myself to accomplish over the next 51 weeks. So now what? How do I stay on course to succeed? Where do I begin? Now its time to break it down, and make it happen.
The things I have set out to do are either things I want to do to improve myself or my personal life, the others are professional goals.Where do I begin?
My biggest day in/day out concern has been money – so my job search has been on my mind a lot,I have work through the next 2 months or so, and a temp agency that will probably get me something to tied me over as I search for work that I want to do.Its getting that job that seems to be problematic tho
On the personal front -loosing weight – well there are three things I can do right away that well help start the process.
1)Stop drinking sweetened beverages (soda, pre sweetened teas and lemonades etc) I am going to try for the next three months (for starters) to give up soda completely
2) Drink Water – Lots and lots of water. This is something I have already begun to do.Just need to do it better and more.
3) Hold the Mayo - I am going to try to switch from mayo to mustard as my condiment of choice on sandwiches (which is also something I am going to try to eat less off)
These three simple things, coupled with a fairly active work life should see a dramatic start to any weight loss.
Oh and I said I was going to begin, so here is my first video blog!
Ok, I am leaving the kiddie pool of my myspace blog, and starting a blog here on Word Press.
I still blog there. And there are lots of great things there that I will repost here, if it fits in.
I blog whatever is going on in my life that I feel is an experience worth sharing. It runs from the sublime to the ridiculous. I am a geek, but you won’t find a Kirk vs. Picard debate here, or a rant about World of Warcraft or anything like that. Unless there is some humor in it that I can share and relate to something personal.
Lately I have been mostly lamenting the state of my social life and the difficulty of being a Stage Manager in NYC
