Countdown Week 20 – This Mortal Coil
Its mid May – and I am still on the road, still away from my family, during a particularly trying time at home.
I have always lived my life with the idea that there was plenty of time to do everything I want. But now I know that is not the case.
I never thought that my mother wouldn’t be there for my wedding, to be a grandmother to my kids…
But like so many other things in my life, I chose small. I managed to stay safe and surround myself with things I think I want. So why do I still want those things?
I never really thought I would be 36 years old and still single. But if you know anything about me you know I have a history of avoiding taking the next step. Personally, professionally, i just want things to be easy, I don’t know where this work ethic developed. But it has made me a concilliator and a diplomat.
I can handle hard! – I am smart- scary smart sometimes, and because of it certain things came easy to me early in life, and because of that I did not have to try as hard as others. I never was challanged early….
I am looking for that great challenge!